Roots and Wings

On nights when I perform bedtime routine with Sam (Josh primarily does bedtime), I sing to him a song I learned from high school choir called "Roots and Wings."  It is such a poignant song that it always brings tears to my eyes every time I sing it.  Even more so last night when Sam started singing with me.

Roots and wings, are precious things
It's all I have, it's all you need.
One day you'll fly, and wave goodbye
I give you roots and wings.

A place to grow, safe and strong
Where I will always be.
And when it's time, to try your wings
I will set you free.

Roots and wings, are precious things;
It's all I have, it's all you need.
One day you'll fly, and wave goodbye
I give you roots and wings.
Fly, fly away.

Sam asked me why he's going to wave goodbye.  I said, when he's all grown up, he will have to leave mommy and daddy and live your own life.  And he said, "mommy, I will never wave goodbye.  I will always be with you."

In those days/nights when I feel that I have failed as a mother, I think of this song.  I think of what kind of lessons (roots) I am instilling on Sam's young mind, so that someday he will be able to spread his wings.  And I always think to myself, tomorrow is another day; tomorrow I will do better."  And in my son's wisdom, he made me feel that I must be doing something right if he wants to stay with me.  That he loves me despite of my shortcomings.  And that someday, I will not be afraid to set him free because he knows how to love and care.